Invisible Strings.

And isn’t it just so pretty to think…

that all along there was some invisible string…tying you to me.

Byron and I have the fate vs. free will debate all the time. I'm always on the side of fate and Byron, always on the side of free will. But here’s my rebuttal. 

I’ve dreamed about being engaged my entire life. I know…I know… “how boy crazy, think for yourself, you don’t need no man”. It was never about the being engaged part or the Tiffany ring part. It was about the finding the unconditional love part. 

Finding someone that loves you so deeply that their light shines in even the darkest places of your world. 

If you had asked 17 year-old me, I would have wholeheartedly told you I was going to marry my high-school sweetheart, no matter what. I didn’t want to be dating in my twenties, I wanted history and a story and best friend. Well let me be the first to tell you that time, is nothing. 

When I least expected it, I met Byron. I even deferred meeting him when his Aunt brought him up to me 4 months before I would soon fall completely in-love with him.

And now, engaged. I look back at our love story and can’t help but think…it was always him wasn’t it? There was something, that tied his and mines paths in this lifetime together and for that I’ll forever believe in fate. 

Byron is nothing I expected, & everything I had hoped for. He perfectly completes me in everything I lack and is quite honestly more like my dad than I would like to admit. 

Even if we weren’t high school sweethearts, or we haven’t know each other for a lifetime…it feels like we have...so if we're talking about lifetimes...and being tied to one another...it sounds like we've been tied together this entire lifestime? 

I joined Flower Girls very late in the game. Invitations had already been sent out when I had the chance to meet with who was suppose to be our chair for the year. Luckily I got in. Only to find out that the chair I had met with, was not going to be our mentor for the year but instead our co-chairs would be Mrs. Brooks & Mrs. Thomas.

Two ladies who taught me everything I know about social skills, self-empowerment and grace. So from early on, The Thomas family came into my life, having no idea how much they would mean to me and my future. 

Mrs. Thomas helped me start my videography business, by letting me film the Charity Ball. I kept her and the Flower Girl Program close to my heart. 

2019 comes and I’ve had a rough year, I’m sure some of you were even apart of it. After a wrenching break up, I was the definition of hot mess express. To put it in words, I don’t remember a good portion of 2019 because of how much I was going out. When it came to relationships at this point, I was convinced my other half was somewhere in New York. Not sure if I 100% manifested this one. 

But I kept up with my commitments, like the Flower Girl Ball. That year Mrs. Thomas had mentioned that her nephew was coming out to train in the police academy…she showed me his picture, and obviously every social courtesy I had learned from her told me to not go into details that I had just come off a 3-month binge, was depressed with crippling anxiety, and still hung up on my ex. So I nodded and went on with my life. 

But what you don’t realize here is at this time, Byron had been trying to get out of New York for months. B was suppose to start the academy in Dec. But didn’t make it out here until March. 

Four months in the academy later, and a lot of therapy for me, guess who get’s hired to photograph his graduation party? 

This invisible string, that’s who. 

From that moment on we were pretty inseparable. So when I say time “ain’t no thang”. I mean it. I’ve learned more about myself in the last two years than ever before. And now, looking back on it I wouldn’t have changed a thing. 

Because there was always something tying you to me.